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Day 50 of no drinking. Here is what I learned: I feel more. I love more. I smile more. I am more grateful. I can pull off pink 🙂 Feelings are hard. I still let people down. Not everyone will like me. I still say the wrong thing (a lot).

 love this photo. It was taken weeks ago. On that day I chose not to share it. I felt posting this picture would be misrepresenting the struggles I was having in sobriety and life, and would dishonor the support so many were providing. I actually thought, “How dare I smile?” But in this moment I […]

For a week I thought I’d write about vanity, addiction and discipline. For my post (and a little bit to irritate Jenn Ciccarelli) I set out to take the yoga picture that would capture the story. After looking at the photo, my heart had something else to say. I met Kathy over about 4 years ago, […]

Day 350 snuck up on me. It is crazy how quickly ten days (or your life) can pass. I have been sober almost a year now. So young in my sobriety I am still experiencing many things for the first time. The holidays have always had strange effect on me. I love the season. I […]

The date March 31st holds a special significance in my recovery story.See I didn’t just “wake up” one year and decide to get sober. I had known for years — more than a decade.My birthday falls on the last day of the third month of the year. I often used this fact to challenge myself […]

Early on Jan 17 2017 I received an email. “I saw on FB that you’re going to quit drinking and increase your yoga for 60 days and I just wanted to wish you luck. You can do it. I know [that not] drinking has been on your mind and I wish I knew the magic […]

Jan 1st 2020: Three Years Sober Today Three years ago armed with nothing but hope and a hypothesis I went on a quest to change my brain and my life I’ve spent the last two years diving into eastern and western philosophy, neuroscience and psychology. I’ve spent countless hours trying to distill my thoughts into […]

1051 Days Sober I don’t know if truer words have ever been spoken to me. At least that is how it felt in that moment. “The choice was made long before the action,” I read his text in his distinctive way of talking. Fortunately my actions were not harmful, except to my immediate mental state, […]

I have not yet researched where the Sanskrit word sadhana might have first appeared, even though I tend to enjoy etymology. I was first exposed to the word in reading Iyengar’s Light on the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali. Sadhana has come to be associated with “a spiritual practice.” I prefer Iyengar’s definition of a methodical, […]

870 days sober: The Daily Minimum Do you know what my yoga practice requires outside of myself? Nothing. All it requires is for me to breathe, gaze and move. No teacher required. No mat. Just me. Physically it is as intense or as playful as you allow it to be. Mentally just stepping on your […]