Monthly Archives: May 2017

4 years and 145 days. Today is 145 days of no drinking. Today is 60 lbs ago. Today is also the 4 year anniversary of me beginning to retake control of my life. Today four years ago I walked into an office in Sandy Springs and said I had lost in a 10 year battle with addiction, and I needed help. Every day since has been hard. Every day since my friends have had to deal with my roller coaster of emotions and cries for support. I am forever grateful to you. You give me strength. I struggled if I should write this and how it would affect my life, but If I can help one person who felt the way I felt 4 years ago I don’t care about the consequences. If you need help please reach out to me. I don’t have all the answers but I will help you. I know it can be done. Yoga was part of the answer for me. If you ever wondered why I love yoga so much and the Balance Yoga Atlanta community please read this link.

Day 140 of no drinking completed. What does one do on this day instead of drink? Dress up like an elf with my niece and nephew of course. I spent most of my adult life running from myself. I somehow learned it wasn’t cool to be nerdy; that it wasn’t ok to love to study and dream of dragons and elves and Jedi and starfighters. I want my niece and nephew to know they should never be ashamed of who they are and what they love and that they can express themselves however they choose as long as they do it with love and empathy.

Some other notes:

The resiliency of kids is awesome. We went from puking on the floor in a restaurant in the morning to playing knight and princess. I wish I could realize that type of turnaround in a day.

I hope I was successful in teaching my niece to enjoy the present and the things currently in her life and not what she could have and do next (but I still bought her everything she wanted.) I have a new level of respect for parents. You are amazing and patient souls.

Appreciate what you have and be present. There is a lot of love in moment.

I love y’all

“When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.” ― Lao Tzu

Day 120 of no drinking completed. I think this picture sums up the results of this experiment. Many people have reached out in support and a few people to ask why and how. The why is complicated and probably best shared over a cup of coffee. In short, I got too drunk at a close friend’s wedding. George Michael dying made me ask why my grandfather died so young. My Ashtanga practice made me ask why I wasn’t building strength and progressing even though I was practicing. I was asking myself how much of my identity was wrapped up in drinking. I truly believed I was only liked for that side of my life. I wondered what happened to the nerdy little boy who loved Star Wars, hated drinking and wanted to study all the time. I was really tired of being an asshole when I thought I was being funny. I decided to take 120 days off from drinking and see if I could answer these questions and see how my life would change. It was time to reinvent myself. I feel healthier and more like myself that I have felt in 20 years. I am happy.