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1010 days sober: My Sadhana

I have not yet researched where the Sanskrit word sadhana might have first appeared, even though I tend to enjoy etymology. I was first exposed to the word in reading Iyengar’s Light on the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali. Sadhana has come to be associated with “a spiritual practice.” I prefer Iyengar’s definition of a methodical, […]

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870 days sober: The Daily Minimum

870 days sober: The Daily Minimum Do you know what my yoga practice requires outside of myself? Nothing. All it requires is for me to breathe, gaze and move. No teacher required. No mat. Just me. Physically it is as intense or as playful as you allow it to be. Mentally just stepping on your […]

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860 days sober: Today I didn’t quit

860 days sober: Today I didn’t quit After my second Sun Salutation the internal conversation started. “How in the fuck am we going to finish practice?” I was weak which was seemingly at odds with my practice earlier this week. I swear body states change as easily as mental and emotional ones. Was it the […]

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830 days sober: The Power of Hope

If there is something you want to change in your life, you can. You might not be able to see a way or hell, you might not even recognize there is something you want to change yet. For many years people hoped for me. They hoped I would not drive home drunk again. They hoped […]

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820 Days Sober: I Believe in a Better South

I am a Southerner. I was raised in Harrison, Georgia, a rural town of about 500 people; median income $18,125 in today’s dollars. I was bused 1.5 hours up and down dirt roads, every day, to go to school in the county seat, Sandersville. The dream of most families was for their kids to work […]

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790 Days sober: I don’t have to feel this way.

790 Days sober: I don’t have to feel this way. I stared through the window into the bar connected to my hotel in San Francisco. Everyone was having so much fun. I remembered a time when I could participate. Unfortunately I wasn’t recalling all the pain and hurt my drinking caused. I thought, “I don’t […]

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760 days sober: New Beginnings

I did not want to make the drive. Not again. A three hour drive into my own personal heart of darkness. Sitting with my thoughts while speeding to the very region I spent a lifetime escaping Garfield is not unlike the small rural Georgia town I grew up in. My brother has spent the last […]

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750 days sober.: It’s not magic. It’s practice.

Sutra 1.21 “The goal is near for those who are supremely vigorous and intense in practice” Sutra 1.22 “There are differences between those who are mild, average and keen in their practices.” A friend called me up recently seeking advice, “I admire your ability to seemingly navigate stress and conflict with a sense of peace […]

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740 days sober: In 2200 characters or less.

As a boy I loved to learn. Mama would sit with me at the dining room table every night and help me with my studies. Daddy, always the avid reader, modeled the behaviors of a lifelong learner.I am not sure where it changed. But after more than a decade of drug and alcohol abuse, my […]

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700 days sober: Where does this path lead?

700 days sober: Where does this path lead? “On this path effort never goes to waste and there is no failure.” Taylor and I sat down to record an episode of his podcast. Here sat a teacher and friend I feel like I’ve known a lifetime yet it’s only been 14 months. So much of […]

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