Many of you only know about past behaviours through my stories, and those of you who knew me before I got sober, only saw what I allowed you to see. People knew I liked to party and often drank “too much”. No one knew to what extent I was drinking.A friend sent me the picture […]
“I know what I’m asking but would you be willing to take on a project like me?” “I am willing to help in any way I can, but this is not my project to take on. It is your project. Writing it tore my heart. I’m open to talking to anyone who reaches out. I […]
“Slow your breathing Butler” “I am trying. I can’t.” “You can.” I could feel myself getting annoyed. I really was trying to breathe, but instead my breath was short and gasping. That day I practiced in the evening. I recall I made a cup of coffee for the trip to the shala. I was at […]
Tucked away in Atlanta, GA is my home shala, @balanceyogaatlanta If I had not found Balance 4.5 years ago I would not be sober. I am from a small town, population 500, in Georgia. I rode a bus for an hour up and down dirt roads to go to school in the neighboring towns 15 […]
Five years ago today, I walked into Dr. Philip Flores’ office to seek professional help for an addiction I had been battling for over a decade. I was exhausted and tired of lying. I was tired of fearing people who believed in me would find out. I was tired of waking up and saying “not […]
470 Days Sober: Choosing to do what is right for me. Yesterday day I completed @taylorhuntyoga#Ashtanga intensive in Ohio. It was one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. I’ve never been good at choosing to do what is right for me. I just let life happen to me. Often letting other people drive. I have […]
As I stepped up to talk about our product vision, the question hit me, “How did this Southern boy from a town of 500 get here? Six years ago I was teaching high school chemistry.” Sixteen years ago I set out to get a PhD in chemistry at the University of Florida. Although I enjoyed […]
Late 2013. Jonathan and I had been trying to grab lunch for awhile. We hadn’t seen each other in months. He is one of the smartest guys I know. The kind of person you listen to. Growing up he was both a brainiac and an athlete, but like me, gained a lot of weight as […]
I started the day with a hangover. Unfortunately this was not uncommon back then. I had to “teach”. Today would be a movie day. I enjoyed teasing my students with music, movies and people outside of their pop culture knowledge. We had “guess the song” pop quizzes that featured 90 rap, 80s music and golden […]
“Get busy with life’s purpose, toss aside empty hopes, get active in your own rescue – if you care for yourself at all – and do it while you can.” Meditation 3.14 Last week I found writings from Jan 1st 2017. I forgot I wrote them. I described myself as riddled with anxiety and depression, […]