Day 350 snuck up on me. It is crazy how quickly ten days (or your life) can pass. I have been sober almost a year now. So young in my sobriety I am still experiencing many things for the first time. The holidays have always had strange effect on me. I love the season. I […]
This passage from The Gita makes me think of @taylorhuntyoga “What the outstanding person does, others will try to do. The standards such people create will be followed by the whole world.” 3.21 December 31st, 2016 was my last drink of whiskey. I wish I could say I committed to being sober the next day […]
I cried this morning. I was sitting in my chair attempting to read the Yoga Sutras in its entirety before work, and I just started crying. My tears were a salty mixture of overwhelming gratefulness, a lifetime of regret and a sense of purpose. This is the sutra that caused the first tear: “The cause […]
Dr. Flores asked last week how I felt about everything. He meant the last 3 months where I truly had to face myself, the last 9 months since I got completely sober, the last 4 years since I entered recovery and the knowledge of why I drank away the last 20 years. I replied, “If […]
Day 270 of Complete Sobriety: Night and Day A couple of nights ago, a coworker and I were goofing around after an event and taking pictures under the lights outside of the Fox Theatre. We were laughing and being silly. A random snapshot captured the picture on the right. I cherish this moment. I remembered […]
I attempted to read the Yoga Sutras years ago as part of a 3 month Ashtanga immersion at our shala. They not resonate with me. The language seemed too dense and odd (ie colored impressions), but I had bought the book and it remained on my shelf. There was no grand plan earlier this year […]
I began my Ashtanga yoga practice at Balance Yoga nearly 4 years ago. At 246 lbs (no, I could not touch my toes) and newly in recovery I went to my first yoga basics class. I learned the first few poses in the Ashtanga primary series (had no idea what that meant.) Ashtanga is a […]
I stopped drinking 220 days ago. Recently I questioned my decision. I am recounting these events to remind myself why I chose this path; why it is necessary. By May of 2016 my body was falling apart. After practicing yoga for 3 years, my progress halted. A chronic shoulder injury, tendonitis and weakness plagued me. […]
“Transformation isn’t sweet and bright. It’s a dark and murky, painful pushing. An unraveling of the truths you’ve carried in your body. A practice in facing your own created demons. A complete uprooting before becoming.” -Victoria Erickson Arrogance told me I could do this on my own. My ego demanded it. The truth is even […]
Really Facing Yourself for the First time Warning: Awareness may come with pain. I’ve been completely sober for 200 days. The last 10 days have been the hardest since I entered recovery 4 years ago. I spent 20 years numbing pain and excusing behaviors I did not understand. I lived a persona who pretended not […]